MOVING GRAINS: Looking for the Little Things to Change and Keep Changing

“There are limits. We may be able to ride the current wave of extinction, but we do know we can’t ride it all the way down. Taken as a whole, natural systems are the basis of life on earth, as easy as that my be to forget in times when meat comes from the grocery store and water from the turn of a tap. Grasslands still feed our livestock, and forests still store and filter our water. Even wild foods remain critically important to modern life: the oceans provide us with about 90 million tonnes of fish each year, feeding billions of people every day. The community of living things, from microbes to megafauna, is endlessly producing oxygen, generating topsoil, stripping our chemical pollutants from the water, slowing erosion, controlling pests, moderating the climate. Economists try to place a value on these ‘ecosystems services,’ but the numbers — one pioneering estimate was $35 trillion — are too large to be more than abstractions, and too small to express the reality that we are nowhere close to being able to replace a living world with human technology. Nature is priceless. As the environmental historian Donald Worster says, “We have not learned how to live on a planet that is dead.”

I have just finished reading The Once and Future World by J.B. MacKinnon (from which the above section is taken) this week and found it very interesting. It is hard to imagine what our landscapes may have looked like when there were more “wild”. Each generation is born with its own benchmark of normal and of “wild”. We live with this collective amnesia that leaves us blissfully ignorant. Regardless of what an ideal relationship between humans and every other living thing on this planet may look like, the truth of the above passage is blunt. We can never live on a planet that is dead.

Also this past week, I saw this quote:

“Canada, the most affluent of countries, operates on a depletion economy which leaves destruction in its wake. Your people are driven by a terrible sense of deficiency. When the last tree is cut, the last fish is caught, and the last river is polluted; when to breathe the air is sickening, you will realize, too late, that wealth is not in bank accounts and that you can’t eat money.”

Comments by Alanis Obomsawin in the 1972 book titled “Who is the Chairman of This Meeting?” (source:  accessed 2018-11-12)

I remember how incensed I was in my first year environmental economics class when I heard that an oil spill increases a country’s GDP. GDP (gross domestic product) is what politicians use to track how economically prosperous a country is. Governments worldwide want higher and higher GDPs because it reflects a more prosperous country. The resources required to clean up a major oil spill increases a country’s GDP. This is so sad. It is so disheartening. It’s like having a household that shows a higher annual spending for a particular year… One can look at that and say, “Hey, they’re doing better!” but a deeper look may reveal that there was a devastating fire without proper insurance and so personal savings had to be withdrawn for rebuilding.

The bottom line is that the environment has never played a big enough role in our economic system. Economics (and I’m no expert) is mathematical. It works when we can attribute a finite number to something. An equation doesn’t work if you insert a photo of old-growth forest as a variable… it requires a number. This is impossible. The two things just DO NOT BELONG together.

If you are like me, and feel deeply that we CANNOT live on a dead planet and that money, technology, progress for progress’ sake etc. are not the best places to be investing our energies, then you also must feel small like I do sometimes. I know sometimes I feel like someone being forced to move one grain of rice at a time from one pile to another when everyone else seems to be adding grains of rice to my starting pile by the cup-full! People are busy with their lives, trying to attain happiness, trying to achieve goals. Many of us are happy to be ruled by “structural changes”. In other words. we are waiting for the rules of the game to change, forcing us to change our own lives. Government terms are too short for politicians seeking re-election to make large, meaningful environmental changes (and succeeding governments can just change back again anyway), and the people leading the world in economical / business areas are driven by profit. If you are waiting for someone to change the rules so you are forced to be more “green”, you will be waiting a long time for meaningful change (a change that would, for all intents and purposes, be “too late”).

But, it is certainly not time to despair! As I often say, it is far harder to change someone else’s mind than to change your own behaviours. Structural change does not limit individual actions. And, the hope would be that individual actions could temper the playing field for structural changes. In other words, don’t look at that big pile of rice you have to move grain by grain. Just focus on each grain as you’re moving it. 🙂 The best antidote against despair is action!

My own recent little changes include :

  1. Buying from the Bulk Barn using their “bring your own container” option. Also, checking with customer service at Bulk Barn to make sure I am indeed buying bulk (and not just scooping Cheerios that have been poured out of non-bulk boxes!)
  2. Walking 20 minutes farther to get fresh fish so I can bring my own container (instead of buying Styrofoam close by). Only eating fish every once in a while as a change from our mostly plant-based diet.
  3. Switching to milk in glass bottles (and drinking less milk because organic and glass bottles = higher price).
  4. Quitting coffee and tea cold-turkey. Little if any nutritional value and definitely NOT local.

We keep looking for little things to change as a family. We are focusing on our own little grains of rice. Do not make changes simply because others are making them. Look first at your own life and make the changes that are right for you. Inspiration can be found from outside sources but your own changes need to make sense for you. There is not place for judgement (self-judgement or judgement of others). Set your intention and make meaningful actions.

The important part is to know that we are not alone. You are not alone.

On October 31st, the David Suzuki Foundation sent out an email to its’ general mailing list with a forwarded message from its CEO, Steve Cornish. Here is part of that message:

He goes on to encourage us all to read this article from The Guardian by Rebecca Solnit –> Don’t despair: the climate fight is only over if you think it is

What will be the next little grain of rice you move over? 🙂


BACK IN THE SADDLE: An Adventure and a Return

Family, friends and dear readers,

It has been almost a year since my last post and quite a bit longer than that since I’ve posted regularly. This is because, between April 2017 and July 2018, I have been overseas with my family on an incredible adventure.

We have recently returned it our home in Ottawa, Canada, and are happy to be back. I hope to write more regularly and may even venture posting monthly (not a promise yet!)

For now, as a bit of a recap of our year away, you can access a series of articles I wrote for my community newspaper, Vistas News.

Here’s what the first first article looks like (see picture below). To see other articles, click on the appropriate links.

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May 2017 issue, page 7: Our Thailand Adventure (intro)   (as seen above)

June 2017 issue, page 25: School 1 and School 2

(No publication in July and August)

September 2017 issue, page 19: Tapestries 1 and Tapestries 2

October 2017 issue, page 23: The Only King I Have Known

November 2017 issue, page 23: Tanning versus Whitening (Skin, not Teeth!)

December 2017 issue, page 1: The Gift of True Gifts Around “The Holidays” 1 234

January 2018 issue, page 24: I Miss My Family Doctor

February 2018 issue, page 23: AH KHONG (Grandfather)

March 2018 issue, page 23: Working Through Shame

April 2018 issue, page 23: Signing Off


So, you can see that I was not idle in my time away from this blog!

Stay tuned for a post about Medical Marijuana coming shortly… it’s about time for an update since my first post in May 2016. A timely topic too, as Canada legalizes recreational marijuana this October 17th, 2018.

I hope this finds you joyful in the details of life. If you would like to connect, do message or post a comment here. *Gentle hugs*







MY MAPPED GENOME: Personal DNA Sequencing and Its Role in Understanding Chronic Illnesss

I am one of those people who has my personal genome at my fingertips.

Almost two years ago, after seeing a geneticist regarding a possible Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome diagnosis (a diagnosis I did not receive), I decided to pay to have access to my own genetic sequence data. My genetics appointment left me feeling like I just wanted more information about myself. I didn’t want to have to wait for a specialist to feel strongly enough about something to warrant the genetic testing.


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23andMe, a company you may have heard of, operates in the United States of America. Last year I believe it was just $200 to order a DNA kit. As of today’s date (2017-01-23) it’s $249 CAD. The kit arrives, you spit a lot into a plastic tube and you send it back off. Not long after, you received your genetic information online from 23andMe.

After the information arrives, you quickly realize it’s A LOT of information! 23andMe provides some reports split into larger categories of “Health” and “Ancestry”. If however, you’d like to explore more, you can choose to sign up with a number of different third party companies that have filled the hole in the market for helping shift through your data. I’m signed up with for instance. For $20 I was able to upload my 23andMe data to LiveWello then from LiveWello I could create my own variance reports… Ok, I think I might have lost most of you so I will back up. 🙂

Source: (accessed 2016-11-15)

DNA showing nucleotides with base pairs. Source: (accessed 2016-11-15)

We have genetic information that is the essence of who we are stored on 23 pairs of chromosomes. Generally speaking, half of our genetic information comes from each biological parent. Our DNA strands are wounded up tightly (like a long long string or rubber band that you keep winding and it folds in on itself) and contain pairs of nucleotides with a base pair lock-and-key type markers that connect to each other to form the “rungs” of the DNA “ladder”. There are only four base pairs. Adenine (A) links with thymine (T) whereas cytosine (C) links with guanine (G). The sequence of these simple linkages makes up who we are genetically speaking. So simple. So complex. So mind-boggling!

A gene is a grouping of nucleotide base pairs that form a functional unit. For instance, one of the major genes involved in eye colour expression is the OCA2 gene, which provides a map to creating a the P protein, a protein found in melanocytes (cells that create melanin – a substance which gives skin, hair and eyes colouring). The OCA2 gene is located between base pairs 27,719,008 to 28,099,342 on chromosome 15 (citation). *Time to pause in wonder at DNA and life and patterns and disorder… WOW!*

Humans have 23 chromosome pairs. The two sets of genetic information on these chromosomes don’t necessarily match. It’s part of the magic of individuality even at the DNA base pair level of each and every one of us. The word used when looking at genes and their differences is “allele”. “Allele” just means gene variance. There are alleles that are “dominant” or “recessive” and these result in different outward expression (or phenotype) of certain genes.


Ok, enough details and definitions for now… let’s look at a concrete example. Above is my 23andMe “chromosome view” of ancestry.  You can see my 23 pairs of chromosomes lined up. My info may be easier to distinguish than others because I am half Thai (of Chinese decent) and half French-Canadian (of European descent). For my chromosome 15 you can see that one set is clearly large portion British-Irish (from one parent) and the other is mostly Chinese ancestry (from the other parent). Wherever the exact OCA2 gene is, I have one dominant (dark eye colour) allele from one parent and the second recessive (light eye colour) allele from the other. My phenotype (what shows as my eye colour) is the dominant dark eye colour. My genotype (what is coded but not necessarily seen) is heterogygous (meaning one dominant allele and one recessive allele). Of course it’s much more complicated, but it gives you a bit of an idea.

Once the human genome was map, researchers dived right in. If, as a researcher, you were interested in finding whether there was a genetic basis for acrophobia (the fear of crowds) for instance, you would recruit a population (for good scientific results, the more people the better) who were afraid of crowds and see whether you could find some common variance in their alleles. You would compare against an equally large (or larger) group of normal “controls” (people who aren’t afraid of crowds) and calculate with how much certainty / confidence you can report any associations and possible risk alleles. I did not do well when I studied statistics so I will stop at that.

Just for fun, the National Post newspaper publish an article in 2013 based on findings in a particular study on phobias. The news article by Rebecca Tucker was titled “Afraid of heights? Blame your parents: New study suggests phobia may be genetic“.

So once I had my genome at my fingertips I could figure everything out myself, right? Wrong! Sure one can sift through scholarly articles and reviews to find risk alleles, but even knowing what those are and being able to compare them to individual data doesn’t necessarily lead to something significant. There are some diseases where it is know exactly which one based pair is responsible for disease expression, but for things like Ehlers-Dandlos Syndrome or auto-immune conditions, it is much more complicated. On top of that, even IF a person where to have all the risk alleles present, it would only represent a part of what would constitute the systemic disease entity. The rest of the picture would include environmental factors (trauma/stress etc.)

Having my own genome mapped has allowed me to truly marvel at the complexity of my body. It has not given me any more answers but can often lead to more questions. As someone with curiosity, playing about with my own data and skimming articles is something I dive into occasionally, but I understand now that, for me, it is not very likely to lead to anything definitive.

Where having mapped genomes of larger patient populations does help is in research, as mentioned above. If a large group of a certain population of people is found (e.g. Chinese people with a lupus diagnosis), then researchers can look at their DNA in great detail to try and find patterns. If links can be made or patterns found, whatever aspect of the body or disease they were looking at could perhaps be better understood. In many cases, the exact location(s) of genes and gene mutations from whence disease originates is not known. Finding risk alleles helps lead research into treatment and cures for diseases. As a researcher into complex systemic human disease, it must be nice to have any clues, no matter how small!

As far as diagnosis and using genetic information for diagnosing patients, I understand now that, for a large majority of conditions, genetic reports would mean very little. A clinician would still have to diagnose based on signs and symptoms combined with diagnostic testing and lab results (unless one were dealing with a disease where a specific known base pair(s) was the problem).

In conclusion, in my personal case, though I do not regret paying for my genome, it has not led to much (besides many “lost” hours of exploring, helping to fulfill my curiosity and increasing my learning). 🙂

Do you have your own genome sequenced? Have you enjoyed diving into the genome “rabbit hole”?

Note: The issue of genetic information and privacy is a hot topic. I will not delve into it here but you can bet I read the terms and conditions for 23andMe and LiveWello very carefully before going forward!





Many people, even “normal” people who don’t have a roster of medical specialists have seen pain scales. The most commonly used (posted all over ER exam rooms around the world) is the Wong-Baker FACES® Pain Rating Scale. It was a tool initially design to helpfaces_english_blue1assess pain in pediatric patients but it is now widely used for patients 3-years-old into adulthood. More in-depth scales have been created based on this principal of rating pain from 0 to 1untitled0, with 10 being the worst pain that one can imagine. This “Universal Pain Assessment Tool” (below) is seen a lot too. Based on the Wong-Baker scale, it adds more detail.

I am not the first patient to feel frustrated by such scales. Yes, they are useful for medical professionals to get a quick idea of pain levels but they are also lacking, particularly when it comes to people who deal with chronic pain or who have a high pain tolerance. Such scales also can fall short because a person’s “worst pain possible” is variable. To illustrate, when I first started dealing with chronic pain, I spent a lot of time in bed or resting. I spent a lot of time with “Moderate Pain” (blue and purple faces). Now, despite pain levels increasing, I spend most of my time with the “No Pain” green happy face. pain_ratingAdditionally, some people have gone through extreme pain comparative-scaleexperiences. I know a few people who have had hollow organ ruptures (appendix, ureter etc.)…. whereas someone else may have experiences a sprained ankle as their worst pain so far. These past experiences would change someone’s pain scale perception drastically. In my search I invisible-illness-with-emoticons-403x403-72dpi-webcame across one scale that rates “comparative pain” (something I wrote about in a previous blog which you may be interested in reading here).  I have seen numerous blog posts and memes (like the one to the left) that approach this issue of chronic pain often being invisible.

The scales I have found most useful for myself so far2011-10-24-scale-of-pain have been those based on functionality. Instead of assessing pain, it assesses the person’s ability to function. In the pain management world, functionality is the focus of pain management specialists anyway with the focus being taken away from quantifying a person’s pain. An example would be the Functional Ability Scale or the Work and Social Adjustment Scale (WSAS) – Serenity Programme.

Though this is all very complex, when I doctor asks you to rate your pain from 1 to 10 with 10 being the worst pain you can imagine, you can’t delve into a five minute discussion raising all the relevant points. The key is to be skillful. I often quickly state what my 10 is and what my 5 is so that there is perspective setting. I also often mention how pain and suffering are not the same thing… which I don’t dig deep into in a specialist’s office but I will elaborate on here.

In the first months of my chronic pain condition, I took a mindfulness for chronic pain course series at the Ottawa Mindfulness Clinic. One of the most poignant pieces of information I took from the course was: SUFFERING = PAIN x RESISTANCE. If I were to be completely and utter (body and soul) non-resistant to the pain my mind tallies, I would have absolutely no suffering. Now, though I practice informal mindfulness every day, I do not expect to get anywhere near Enlightenment in this lifetime! The message is still valid though.

I believe a good compliment to the Pain Scale would be a “Suffering Scale”. Here is one I created base on my own experiences. It is not rigorously research or thought-upon by any means.


0 – EVERY experience is truth and wonder. I register all my pains and discomforts with the same perspective and curiosity that I register my joys and see them as they are. I am the opposite of numb.

1 – I live a life of full of joy and wonder but I have to be vigilant in my mindfulness. When I experience suffering, I do not hide from it but I may not identify it truthfully at first.

2 – The perspective or stance I take on my life means I spend quite a bit of time and energy dwelling in places that can easily lead to suffering.

3 – My negative emotions and physical pain cause me enough suffering that it is leaking into the lives of those around me and adding to their suffering.

4 – I can no longer process thoughts effectively about suffering, pain, or anything. My suffering is physically and emotionally blinding.

5 – Disassociation from self. I do not register pain or joy. My body and mind are detached and numb.

This is a quick version I jotted down. What do you think? What would you change or add? This does give you a bit of a idea of what I mean though. Someone could be at Level 5 out of 10 on the Pain Scale but 1 out of 5 on the above Suffering Scale. Level of suffering compared to that of pain makes a HUGE difference. When someone expresses sadness or pity toward me, I often respond with, “I am happy. My life is full of joy. I may experience chronic pain but I believe I am suffering much less than a lot of people who experience no bodily pain.”

Chronic pain has changed my life. The trick is to keep seeing it as a different life and not a worse life. Working at it every day! 🙂

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I recently finished reading Brené Brown‘s The Gifts of Imperfection. Earlier this year I read Daring Greatly and Rising Strong. Brené identifies herself as a researching and a storyteller. She initially started researching “connection”. She saw it is as a basic need for human beings and so wanted to dissect it. In looking more closely at the “anatomy of connection” she was blindsided by “shame” and “vulnerability”. As Brené writes ” I didn’t sign on to study shame— one of the most (if not the most) complex and multifaceted emotions that we experience. A topic that not only took me six years to understand, but an emotion that is so powerful that the mere mention of the word shame triggers discomfort and avoidance in people.” (source)

Aside from her honest and heart-full accounting of her research findings, what I took away from her books were the definitions she wrote based on her “grounded research”. As Brené explaines: “The grounded theory process consists of five basic components: theoretical sensitivity, theoretical sampling, coding, theoretical memoing, and sorting. These five components were integrated by the constant-comparison method of data analysis. The goal of the research was to understand the participants’ ‘main concerns; related to experiencing the topic being examined (e.g., shame, Wholeheartedness, vulnerability). Once the main concerns emerged from the data, I developed a theory that explains how the participants continually resolve their concerns in their daily lives.” (source). The thing with the grounded theory framework is, if there is even just one outlier, then it doesn’t work. Every single sample/interview needs to fit the finding/definition or else the work is not right yet.


Source of image: (accessed: 2016-10-17)

I am not a religious person but I am full to the brim with faith and spirituality. When I read Brené’s definitions of these two concepts, I felt relief. Smiling, nodding, peaceful relief. If you ask enough people what “faith” is to them (hundreds of people), if you listen to hear them and then code their responses and analyze them… this would be the definition of faith that arises (picture to the right). A definition that would fit with each of those individuals’ world views. And see how Brené defines spirituality based on her research below.



Last week, after finishing The Gifts of Imperfection I started wondering… What’s the definition of “chronic illness” that would do the same thing. The would ring true and fill me with relief because of its correctness. In the medical community, the definition of chronic disease leans heavily on the duration of the health problem and its persistent nature.

“Although the literature does not support a single uniform definition for chronic disease, recurrent themes include the non–self-limited nature, the association with persistent and recurring health problems, and a duration measured in months and years, not days and weeks.” (Thrall, 2005 as quoted in Goodman et al, 2013)

Interestingly, there can be a differentiation made between “chronic disease” and “chronic illness” where:

Chronic disease is defined on the basis of the biomedical disease classification, and includes diabetes, asthma, and depression.4 Chronic illness is the personal experience of living with the affliction that often accompanies chronic disease.” (Martin, 2007)

Though such definitions can be useful, they have been studied, explored, and written by medical professionals. They do not make me smile peacefully because they ring true with correctness. Although I have not interviewed and codified under a grounded theory framework hundreds of interviews, I have communicated with at least a couple of dozen people with chronic illnesses and I myself live with chronic illness. I will now blunder around trying to nail down my best attempt at my own definition for chronic illness.

[Picture me at my desk at home with a fresh cup of tea, a blank piece of paper, and a pen. I will be back when I have something I think might work.]

What is chronic illness?

What is chronic illness?

And still I don’t know if this really covers it…

This idea of changing states is interesting because there is the belief that, though a different (“healthy” or “normal”) self is left behind and mourned, the true essence of self still remains. I wonder then about people who have lived with illness for as long as they can remember. I guess for such people, memories of puddle life may not be vivid (or may not exist at all) but they can see other puddles and imagine / project themselves into puddle form. Ok, this analogy has come far enough I think 🙂

542702244Another image that came to mind for me is that of a large ash tree. It is cut down because of disease. It still has its roots and it still has its tree rings of experience… but it is so very different. The new growth that comes up from the sides of the old trunk are definitely not the same as the full-grown tree, but still definitely ash. Also still drawing on the same soil. With this analogy, a younger person who has chronic illness would be a little ash sapling sprouting from the side of a truck that has fewer rings or not many rings at all.

What do you think? What would be your definition of chronic illness? 🙂 Get yourself a fresh cup of tea and have a go!

I’m going to move on and finish with the title of this blog post, “The Opposite of Chronic Illness Is…”


This is even more difficult to tackle. I lay in bed thinking about this for a

From The Gifts of Imperfection - Brené Brown

From The Gifts of Imperfection – Brené Brown

while last week. Just mulling ideas and feelings around. Another way to think of a concept besides working on a definition is to ask what the opposite of this concept is. For instance, Brené writes that the opposite of “scarcity” isn’t “abundance“, it’s “enough“. Do you feel the strength in this truth? I do! In The Gifts of Imperfection Brené quotes Anne Lamott: “The opposite of faith in not doubt; but certainty” from Plan B: Further Thoughts on Faith.

And so, what is the opposite of chronic illness?


The opposite of chronic illness is not health. It is living without a heavy, unretractable, and lonely burden of body and mind.

And so, though a person can come to a peaceful, joyful place (this is where the “you look great” comments are prolific), doesn’t mean that the constant burden is not being carried. It just means the grace with which this is being done is astounding. When someone says, “you look great” to me, I will, from this moment forth, stop feeling the “well I don’t feel great” side of things and instead translate “you look great” to: “You are carrying your burden with such grace that the joy within you is glowing brightly enough that it also brings me joy!

A friend of a friend once wrote to me that before chronic illness, his body was a “trustworthy companion willing to do just about anything” and for many healthy people, that is taken for granted. Chronic illness turns this friend into a burden and challenges the sufferer to once again build a strong friendship anew.

The opposite of chronic illness...

The opposite of chronic illness…



“FEW-FOODS” ELIMINATION DIET: Tough Love and Necessary Evils

I have been putting off writing this post for months. As with my last post on medical marijuana, the main reason is that I know it’s going to take a while to write. There is a lot of information and it’s a treatment option that takes a while to explore.

In January of this year (2016), I had my follow-up appointment with Dr. Peter Vadas in Toronto who said I have suspected Mast Cell Activation Disorder (MCAS). Read more here. Upon joining support groups (FYI, there is an group specific to Canada on Facebook, “Canadian Masties”), I understood that diet can play a pivitol role in helping to control “allergic” reactions.

The reason “allergic” is in quotations is because only true allergies are known in the medical community as allergies. True allergies are those mediated by IgE immunoglobulins. To see how this works, here’s a video:

For IgE-mediated allergies or “true allergies”, a skin prick test or a blood test can be effective for diagnosis.

All non-IgE-mediated reactions are called “intolerances” (and not allergies) and they can only really be tested by doing an elimination diet. If a certain food or environmental trigger is suspected, that food is taken out of the diet and then reintroduced. All elimination diets should be done under the supervision of a health care professional. When a certain food(s) is suspected, the person may go on a Selective Elimination Diet where the food(s) is avoided an then reintroduced. The person observes and takes notes. Examples of foods that may be avoided are: milk, egg, wheat, peanut, soy, shellfish, lactose, sulfites, nickel, artificial food colouring, MSG etc. 51fkLa1xG1L._SX258_BO1,204,203,200_

When, as in my case, I was unsure of what my triggers are, a Few-Foods Elimination Diet may be warranted. I recommend Dr. Janice Vickerstaff Joneja’s (PhD, RDN) book, Dealing with Food Allergies (2003) as a good road map to helping you navigate exploring your own allergies / intolerances.

On p. 331 of her book, Dr. Joneja writes: “A few-foods elimination diet differs from a selective elimination in that only a small number of foods are allowed. These are the foods that are considered to be the least likely to trigger an allergic reaction. Such diets are indicated when there are many symptoms with no clear relationship to specific foods.” On the same page there is a very important note on the length of which such a diet should be followed: “Because a few-foods elimination diet is not nutritionally complete, it should never be followed for more than 14 days. Usually only 7 to 10 days is sufficient to show results, and this period should not be exceeded for children under 7 years of age.”

To put it in other terms, an selective elimination diet would involve taking out a maximum of about a dozen foods, whereas a few-foods elimination diet would have you only eating only about a dozen foods.

With suspected MCAS and reactions that seemed willy-nilly, I decided I needed to do a few-foods elimination diet. I had tried a “clean” diet before (eliminating major allergens) about 10 years ago with no observable improvement in symptoms (I had chronic fatigue at the time) but I was ready to try something similar again.

Oral Allergy Syndrome: foods list.

Oral Allergy Syndrome: foods list.


It took about a week to figure out my least likely trigger foods. The few-foods diet I ended up doing was major-allergen-free, low-histamine-and-tyramine, and free of everything I have ever had the slightest reaction to, including Oral Allergy Syndrome (OAS) reactions.

I had homemade gluten-free, nightshade-free, rice milk, pancakes with maple syrup for breakfast. (Note: most gluten-free all-purpose flour mixes have potato starch. I really like this gluten-free flour for non-yeast baking: Cuisine l’Angélique farine tout usage. It does have flax though so if you can’t do flax, it won’t work for you). I had noodle soup with organic turkey and a cooked veggie for lunch, and converted (parboiled) rice with organic bison and a cooked veggie for supper. My safe veggies were those of the broccoli family (bok choy, Brussel sprouts, kale, collards) but NOT cauliflower. I could tolerate sweet peas occasionally as well. For dessert I would have rice cakes drizzled with agave syrup (though the agave made my throat dry, I chose to ignore it 😛 ). Seasoning was only salt, nothing else.

So this diet was 14 days long. After the two weeks, one can add back slowly one food at a time every TWO days. Even more complicated than that, foods can be broken down into many components. For instance, milk can be EIGHT different challenges: casein, biogenic amines + annatto, whey, lactose, modified milk proteins + partially digested lactose, curdled milk with minimum fermentation, complete milk with a complex manufactured product, etc!! (This list was taken from pages 442 and 442 of Dr. Joneja’s book. She has tables to help guided the “sequential incremental dose challenge” phase). Adding back slowly means that when a new food is added, one has a small amount between breakfast and lunch, twice that amount between lunch and supper, and twice that amount again after supper. If an adverse reaction occurs at any point, one is to stop the food immediately and wait at least 48 hours after the symptoms have subsided until reintroducing something else new (Note: I did not stick by the 48h rule for my firs potato papular urticaria reaction – see below – because I would have had to wait over a month!).

My Few-Foods Elimination Diet Realizations:

1. I realized that I really do enjoy a morning coffee. After milk (which I introduced back in one fell swoop), I added coffee. Adding coffee is a big deal because it is a high-histamine product, among other things and so it would technically take up a lot of space in my “bucket” (see photo below)… but undertaking suck a diet highlights the things that are most important. For me, coffee opened up the ability to socialize with friends without having to request just hot water (yes, hot water in a cup with nothing else, thank you).

2. Turkey is not special and festive AT ALL when you are eating it functionally. I cooked two whole organic turkeys and took the meat off them, packing it into ziplock bags to stick in the freezer. Handling this much meat (particularly we don’t prepare much animal meat at home) is nauseating. Yes, I still have some frozen turkey in the freezer. Yes, the smell of turkey still makes me woozy.

3. I am good at “Tetrising” in the freezer. A low-histamine diet means all food must be fresh or reheated from frozen. This is because histamines build as soon as the food cools enough for microbes to start doing their work. A full-turkey-of-meat is a lot of meat.

The Leaning Tower of Elimination Diet Resealable Bags

The Leaning Tower of Elimination Diet Resealable Bags

4. Cooking for young children, a vegetarian partner and a few-foods-elimination-diet self is A LOT of work.

5. I am the best person I know at really stacking up the dish drying rack.

6. A circular slab of gluten-free “crust” and steamed cauliflower (which is the same colour as mozzarella cheese) does not a pizza make.  What’s more disappoint is that it was this “pizza” which resulted in me taking cauliflower off my few-foods list (so I couldn’t eat more than one slice anyway!).



7. When you tell a restaurant they can ONLY season with salt, they have a really hard time listening to the words coming out of your mouth.

8. It is confirmed that Lyrica makes me gain weight (2/3 lb per week). Even on this crazy calorie-restricted-due-to-its-nature diet, I gained weight because of Lyrica. I have decided feet that often feel like they’re in ski boots and hands that often feel like a book dropped on them 30 seconds ago is background noise I am willing to have in exchange for carrying less weight around on said feet (and knees etc.)

9. I love food. All food. Varied food.


Papular urticaria (self-diagnosed so little weight) the morning after having a heap of mashed potatoes for reintroduction in a few-foods elimination diet.

END RESULT: Although I did have some reactions, including some stronger reactions (see picture on the left of large “mosquito bites” from reintroducing potato), I could not reproduced them (I tried eliminating and re-adding potato twice, include once timed with my cycle). Any crazy heartburn, light-headedness, headaches, heart weirdness, throat/mouth weirdness, GI output etc. could not really be reproduced with any reliability. The conclusion for me is that, though I do have reactions to foods (certain foods more than others), these reactions are not strong enough, nor consistent enough for me to modify my diet. For now any reactions I have I will attribute to wacky mast cells that are leaking again (MCAS). I will reconsider re-doing a similar diet again in another 10 years or so to see if anything has changed.


Parting words of advice:

  • A few-foods elimination diet can be worthwhile thing to do, but proceed only when you are convinced it is necessary. It is hard and once you start, you wanna be able to stay true and hold your course.
  • Borrow Dr. Joneja’s book from your local library or consider purchasing a copy to help you understand food allergies and intolerances better. Alternatively, find a healthcare professional who is willing to guide you in detail through such a diet.
  • (Expensive) IgG and IgA food intolerance testing is not yet backed by sound scientific data so it is not recommend it as a diagnostic tool. For some people, I can see how such testing may serve to guide a selective elimination diet. Really though, for intolerances, the only way you can find out what’s affecting you is by using yourself as a Guinea pig.

It is not always easy to love a chronically ill body and treatment options all come with their own challenges. So now the post is done. Phew! I can finally return Dr. Joneja’s book to the library and, though it was informative, I hope to not see again for a long long while!


MEDICAL MARIJAUNA: Is it right for me and my family?

Anyone who has sat for a while with a chronic illness knows all about this aphorism: “Anything’s worth trying at least once.” Just as there are countless diseases and conditions out there, there are endless options for treatment, intervention and coping.

I thought that medical marijuana (MM) was an “end of the line” option for pain treatment. I did not expect it to be offered to me as an option this past fall by my pain management specialist.

A good friend of mine has been medicating using MM for years and I have seen its benefits. Still though, I could identify some inner resistance. My resistance to it as a treatment option came as a result of a number of gremlins:

MEDICAL MARIJUANA. Argyle+ strain by Tweed.

MEDICAL MARIJUANA. Argyle+ strain by Tweed.

  • Family: I have two young children. How can I manage this new medication responsibly? I have a husband who’s “not thrilled” about MM. How much should I share/withhold from him so that our relationship is minimally affected?
  • Society: I am an extroverted sharer and so like to share my experiences. MM is still relatively new in Canada and so there is still a fog of taboo around it as a treatment option. There is still a lot lot to be done in raising education/awareness. Will I be labeled (or self-label) as a “pot head” or “stoner”?
  • Unknown: As with starting any new medication, there can be side effects and placebo effects. It is embarking upon a voyage that puts pressure on self (to feel effects, to be able to identify them and record them, to be able to decide whether it’s helping or not) and is lonely, in the same way chronic illness can be lonely (because not matter how large your support structure is, your own experience is unique to you). “Here I go again, trying something new, pretty much on my own!”
  • Financial: MM is not covered by provincial health care plans and, unless one has an extreme case and is willing to put a life-shortening amount of work dealing with an insurance company, it is also not covered by extended health care plans (though there are whisperings that this could change). Canadian veterans can qualify to have their MM costs reimbursed by Veterans Affairs Canada, but this does not suit my case (and this practice is currently under review). What this means is that part of the cost – benefit analysis of MM as a treatment option has to take into account financial resources.
  • Negative effects: Will MM damange (or affect in some way) my brain and/or who I am as a person?

I will now quickly address my own points of resistance to MM and then go on to outline my experiences with it so far.

  • Family: I decided to first try edibles. They can be kept in the freezer and are discreet. I can even make my own gel caps so it looks like other medicine. (Though I also try to take my other meds discreetly too… something I will have to write another blog post about at some point 🙂 ) Vapourizers don’t give off much smell and vape pens are quite small but at first I was not ready to invest $70 – $300+ on a little vapourizer. Hubby understands that everything’s worth trying and wants to be in the loop but doesn’t need to know details. Ok, we’re clear for take off!
  • Society: Though I realize that for some people, consciously choosing to acknowledge and then quell societal (and self) stamps of “stoner” or “pot head” etc. is a big challenge, it is something that I have managed to do through knowledge. In order to dispel myths, one must be armed with truths. For instance, THC is the psycho-active component of MM and “street” marijuana is always high in THC (the higher the better). CBD, the component most often cited for chronic pain does not result in feeling “high” and actually counters THC effects as well. MM is regulated and concentrations of THC and CBD are known precisely and listed. The strains available to the medical user are varied.
  • Unknown: Well, everyone deals with this everyone in one form or another. That’s life folks! 🙂
  • Financial: The amounts I would be using to try it out would be minimal. I also picked a licensed producer (LP), Tweed, that offered “compassionate pricing” (in this case 20% off) based on personal income (as opposed to family income or official disability status).
  • Negative effects: Taking MM as edibles or vaporizing MM eliminates much of the unwanted effects of inhaling combusted plant material. Edibles means children aren’t affect psychologically by seeing (or smelling) someone smoke… though edibles do involve cooking and some smell, which I will talk about later. MM works on the central nervous system. It is shock full of substances that can affect your neural functioning in different ways. It should be used under the supervision of a medical professional. Here’s Health Canada’s Consumer Information sheet on MM. Again, anything’s worth trying at least once, right? I have tried Naproxen, Zoloft, Cymbalta, Lyrica and Celebrex… time to try a different tack. Fibromyalgia News Today has this to say about using marijuana to treat chronic pain.
My first shipment arrives.

MY FIRST SHIPMENT ARRIVES. Canada Post delivers 10 grams of marijuana to my door. This is SO WEIRD! What a bizarre feeling! It will take a lot of self (and societal) awareness to not feel weird about getting weed legally delivered to my front door.

CONTENTS OF SHIPMENT. Tweed's two strains I ordered in the black box. Also a Health Canada Consumer Information booklet and a sticker to put onto my wallet card (which I have to carry on me if I'm using MM).

CONTENTS OF SHIPMENT. Tweed’s two strains I ordered in the black box. Also a Health Canada Consumer Information booklet and a sticker to put onto my wallet card (which I have to carry on me if I’m using MM).

If you are interested in trying MM, you can speak with your family doctor or pain specialist. If (s)he is not comfortable prescribing MM, (s)he can refer to someone else. If it is not a treatment option whatsoever for your doctor, you can also go to a compassion club or clinic / dispensary that sometimes offer onsite medical doctors (as well as general help / expertise) in guiding you through the process.

For more information, visit the Health Canada site on Medical Use of Marijauna. Here are the Procedures of Accessing for Marijuana. The form your doctor needs to fill out that is required for you to be able to register with a licensed producer is here. And the list of licensed producers is here.

So my first shipment arrived back in the winter. I did reading online as to how to prepare it properly as an edible, including decarboxylating and then suspension in a fat (cannabutter, cannamilk, canna coconut oil). We (hubby and I) decided that I would do any cooking during they day so that any smell would have time to clear before anyone else got home. Ingesting MM is meant to give a more delayed effect that also lasts longer. A friend relayed that it takes 2-4 hours for the effect to settle in (update: a second informal source has said it’s more like 30 minutes to 2 hours) and can last as much as 8-10 hours. With smoking or vapourizing, effects are instant and settle in completely after an hour or two. It lasts 4-6 hours.

CANNAMILK ICE CUBES. I made cannamilk and used a dropper (to help with dosing accuracy) to freeze ice cubes. I would use one or two in my morning coffee.

CANNAMILK ICE CUBES. I made cannamilk and used a dropper (to help with dosing accuracy) to freeze ice cubes. I would use one or two in my morning coffee.

I’ve had a few interesting experiences with MM so far. They are harmless funny stories. Ask me about the time I thought I was getting my family high (I wasn’t, I didn’t). Or about the time I tried to roll and smoke my first “joint” alone in my back yard in the middle of the afternoon with a BBQ lighter.

Interesting side note: Aside from fibromyalgia, I also have suspected Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (MCAS). There was a period of a few months where I stopped experimenting with MM because I thought it was a trigger for MCAS symptoms (or that I was “allergic” to it). I haven’t been able to reproduce symptoms though so I see any past over-exaggerated reactions as random mast cell silliness.

PHARMA BEE HONEY STICK. A disposable THCe-liquid device which serves as a stand-alone cannabis vaporizer.

PHARMA BEE HONEY STICK. A disposable THCe-liquid device which serves as a stand-alone cannabis vaporizer.

Not long ago, a friend gave me a Pharma Bee Honey Stick and I’ve found it very very handy. It’s tiny and is just ready-to-go. It fits in my palm and so I can use it inconspicuously in public (or even if my children are around). It gives off very little smell. Unfortunately, it is a disposable product.

Since using the Honey Stick, I have ordered a vaporizer pen to try with dry herbs. This has produced mixed results for now (I think mostly because of the lower quality / cheaper pen I bought). Now cannabis oils are also available through licensed producers so I think I will try vaporizing oil so that I don’t have to deal with actual plant material. I am also considering visiting a marijuana lounge so that I can try a high quality vaporizer and gain more knowledge(because like everything it takes time and effort to become an expert).

So for now the question about whether medical marijuana is right for me and my family is still up in the air a bit. My feeling is that, yes, it will become a regular tool in my chronic pain tool belt. Good experiences so far include, enjoying a spring walk where I noticed birds and a gorgeous roofing job instead of focusing on managing my pain with each step (even just the fact that I got up just to go for a walk was a bring surprise!). I can do things like watch a movie or sit at a conference etc. better without fidgeting from discomfort. I enjoy extended time with my children more (it increases my endurance and adds to the quality of my presence).

The best way I can describe it is that it’s not always better but it is different. I think the challenge is working out whether that “different” is better or not. It also takes lots and lots of time and experimenting. There are hundreds of strains and many ways to medicate, which all yield different results.

So I will leave you with this… just because you walk by someone and smell marijuana doesn’t mean they are a misfit or lazy or a stoner or irresponsible… You might have just walked by a medicating mindful mother with chronic pain.


ADDED POST-PUBLISHING: I’m not at the point where I am using MM every day by any means. It’s more of about 1-3 times per week as needed (unless it’s a really rough week). Also, my initial THC max as indicated by my pain management specialist is 10% or under. Although my prescription is for up to 1 gram a day (that’s A LOT), I may use 1 gram a WEEK if I’m having a bad week.